My Recurrent Miscarriages

It is beyond devastating when you lose someone close, likewise when you lose a baby via a miscarriage.

It maybe someone you have never meet before but this someone is so very precious to lose.

Now at September 2015 I have lost 2 babies via a miscarriage. Both via naturally and the fetus fell out of me into my hands.

I cried, I weeped and hang on my husband like a child. I felt miserable and will go days feeling so depressed. I used to cry and breakdown so easily during this times. In short I was an emotional wreck.

But I had good love and support from family and a close friend at work. They would ask me anything until I told them, I guess they did not want to hurt me or make me upset.

My 1^st lost was on 1^st of May 2015. I was 6 weeks along when I found out I was pregnant. I was so excited and quickly scheduled my first scan appointment with my OBGYN. At the first look my doctor was not too happy said the sac was too small for 6 weeks. She sent me out and asked me to fill my bladder and come back in 20 mins. I went back in 20 mins and we saw a sac, I did not suspect anything and went home happy. She prescribed me with Duphaston asked me to come back in 2 weeks which when I will be 8 weeks. When I went  back and she told me we should see a heartbeat by now but we don’t so she said I either have an ectopic pregnancy or having a miscarriage. She wanted me to come in for a surgery.

I left the room and told my husband if it’s a miscarriage let it happen naturally the way I conceived. I prayed and cried everyday in hope I will not miscarry. Unfortunately at week 10 I miscarried. It was painful but it was over in 2 days.

After grieving I felt I was ready to try again. I rested for 3 months and was back on the game, and bang we were pregnant again. This time I did not get a positive pregnancy result until 8 days pass my period. I was super confused so I am never late unless I am pregnant and the test results was not telling me what I wanted to know. I spent 8 days in great worry and frustration and I tested almost everyday. Finally a BTP(big fat positive) I was super excited I was just getting into terms in am pregnant again and 4 days later on the 16^th of September I started spotting and miscarried at 2 am in the morning. I ran in pain to the bathroom and later my husband knew it was not good and he quickly gave me 2 Panadol’s and tucked me to bed. This time it happened so fast I was lost and confused. Same feeling again, disappointed and this time I had some much questions and I was super worried I am medically not well.

The next day I decided to work from home as I was still bleeding, my mind was like a maze so many questions. I knew I needed medical help, I got online and started to read and google looking for the best doctor in KL. That’s when I stumbled upon KL Fertility Center. I spoke to my husband and said this might cost us so can we effort this. He immediately said go for it. I immediately called them and fixed an appointment for 7^th of October 2015

Now I am really looking forward for my appointment but I have also prepared by myself that I might not get all my questions answered or my test results might also came back all good. I told myself I will do the necessary test and if I need medical help I will proceed but more than that I told God this is your race you need to run this for me. I cast all my burden onto God and all my faith on God. No one can close the door if God opens its.
I also did some reading online on good supplements to take and i have decided to add on a few supplements to my current list. 
I am now on :
5mg Folic Acid
New Obimin Prenatal Vitamins
1200mg Evening Primrose
1000mg Fish Oil 

So my journey begins…